#GOD...WHY?

#God why?

If their are any Angels out there who can shed light on some questions I have for God. Please feel free to respond.

God...Why am I here?

It seems life, well my life anyways, has been a constant struggle. I look back at my childhood pictures and I see the wonder in that little boys eyes. I see his enthusiasm for the life ahead.

50 years later I look in the mirror and wonder, where has it gone? why am I not a vet like I remember I wanted to be. Why am I not full of life like I was, what seems so long ago.

Yes, I have made really poor decisions in my life, but I am not an evil person. I just want to know here I fit in...Do I have a gift for anything? I thought, after so many different jobs, that I finally found my calling. To be a writer. I wrote Pangerath,. Well the first two books anyways .

I am in the process of writing part three, when I made this blog.

I am lost and need direction, purpose, belief, that my life does in-fact have reason.

I have been rejected by publishers. My self-confidence is gone. Another attempt at why I am here is fading.

So please GOD!

Why am I here?